I'm sorry to hear you're having so much strain put on you, Nighty.
I can only say, no matter how crappy things look, it's my experience that they always get better than they were before the crap started. You just have to hope. Stay strong, and remember, we're here for you if you want to vent.
Good luck to you, Goth and Moon. Sounds like you both have some interesting times ahead of you.
As for me, oh, I've got a lot of things going right now. For one I've met a chick, a really, really good friend, over the Net who I like enough that I've made plans to go to her soonish and hook up with her. Other than that, I've finished my half-year of studying Japanese. The ending wasn't too pretty, and I didn't pass the course due to some minor rules that didn't agree with me, but I now know a bit of Japanese.
And now I'm once again left standing here, thinking about where to go and what I'll do next. Being that I'm an adventurer, it's not strange that I'm once more in this position, but this time, I've got a few more options than I had the previous times.
For one, I want to re-enlist with the Swedish military and go to Afghanistan. I could justify this for y'all, but, you know, let it be enough to say that while I don't believe in America's war in Afghanistan, I do believe in and support the Swedish presence there. I know not all of you agree with my decision to apply, and I accept that. It's something I feel I should do, though. There are a lot of different reasons, but the main reason is my gut feeling tells me I should try and apply. Do note, however, even if I apply, it's far from certain that they'll let me go.
Other than that, I'm looking for work on Gotland, among other places. Gotland is the beautiful island where I studied archaeology for five or six months. I'm hoping I get to spend the summer there with some random job that'll give me a reason to stick around to the Medieval Week. The work will serve more purposes, mainly to gather money so I can go to USA and hook up with a girl.
The above two aren't really anything I can do for an actual living for anything but a short period of time, well, unless I want to become a professional soldier or mercenary/private security contractor, and while I don't think either are bad guys just because of their chosen profession, I don't rightly feel like doing either for an actual living in the future. I think skills as a soldier is something everyone should have, but not something I myself at least, want to put to use professionally except for as a peacekeeper.
So, being the adventurer that I am, I'm thinking of studying again, this time to become a sailor. The education is roughly eight months long or so, nothing too much, and I can study from home, living at my mother's place, so I can save money, and at the same time work up the points/credits I need from failing Japanese. After I get home from Afghanistan if I'm accepted, I'll prolly put that education to good work somehow. And if I'm not accepted to go to Afghanistan, I'll definitely put it to good use and look for work on a ship.
Still, as it stands, all three are only loose plans. I haven't decided anything yet, but, as always with me, it's likely that this is how it'll happen if I have any say in it. That, and it's good being a sailor, because even if I don't work as one in the future I can still get my own boat one day.